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| #13 In the series "What is Grief teaching me?" See Facebook page @Voice of Grief for Matty inspired lessons on my journey to healing |
The first question I have to ask myself is “What
kind of peace am I searching for, trying to attain”? Is it World Peace? Inner
Peace? Peace of body? Peace of mind? Peace with self? How many types of Peace
are there? Many questions, still no answers. What I do know is that the hardwork
of grief must speak of "The Experiences” it has brought to me when answering the question. Experience
by nature allows me to walk into my own knowledge; wisdom of the ages released
from my higher consciousness. Grief teaching and me listening to my inner voice. Me—learning, absorbing and becoming aware of which beliefs limit growth; opening my mind to different views. Me—taking action; seeing where I need to make changes in myself and making them happen.
Peace with self rings loudest. I hear an answer
“Find the Love in yourself”. My first thought is “here we go again!” I
recognize that voice. I am walking my unique path towards greater understanding
and spiritual growth. Unique means it's mine, discovered at my own pace. My ego
has jumped aboard for the ride, a passenger carrying a bag filled with
expectations and pre-conceived notions. I can hear the self-speak;
negative, defeating, deafening, a false sense of knowing . . . Who do you think you are? Your thoughts
aren’t deep, but mine are. Your behavior annoys me, thinking you can see
things, understand life without my shouting directions. You want to walk the
talk thinking that will bring in life changes? You want to learn? I know all we
need is the talk. You think you can learn from someone other than me? Hmmph, do
you even know what your Higher Consciousness sounds like? I raise an
internal hand, a signal to stop the negative speak, the self-criticism. Guided
to the switch, I turn on the light. Ego gets booted from the ride.
I hear the answer again “Find the Love in
yourself”. The words strike
me . . . like a pop, a bolt of lightening, the nudge that spirit gives when
“this one’s for you” is the message conveyed. Simple words. Words ego has
interpreted as wise, holding it's own face to the mirror of wisdom. They are just well-constructed sounds to the ego bearing the tone of wisdom. Words regurgitated with no back up. Words—my champions, my
exasperations, my irritations. Words—worn out, old, unoriginal. Strung together
in platitudes and clichés, missing the meat. But are they really?
Freed momentarily from the noise of ego, I am able to take in the depth and complexity in such simple words. So, is this how Spirit shines through grief? Be silent, wait for the message, followed by the EXPERIENCE. I will recognize it WHEN it comes. It comes, and it comes again and I feel my annoyance soften. I thank Spirit for this message.
Gratitude.
I ask for more help in understanding and conquering this sometimes insurmountable feat. The answers will not come in my time but in the time Spirit knows I am ready to accept.
Patience.
Loving myself comes after loving others on my heart list.
Awareness.
So where is the “how to” of finding the Love in myself, for self? I take a moment for a mini-reflection and ask myself "What is Spirit saying to me, what is Grief trying to teach me?" I rephrase: “See myself through the lens of Love and begin to overlook short-comings.” Short-comings are what I am seeing in myself, recognized as judgements when seen in others. Reflections in a mirror; what I see in others, I see in myself. A very needed lesson while in human form.
The Experience.
The part of my heart that carries love for others needs to carry that same love for me.
Knowledge/Wisdom.
It began with that raising of my hand to ego. STOP! Sympathy and empathy turned inwards into compassion; an action as small as a hand raised to ego—a change moving me forward in my connection with Spirit; to that spiritual place my soul is working to help me remember. Grief, teaching me without flashing lights, bells and whistles— simple words, nothing earth shattering but then again how could it be, I was in a place of Spirit!!
Peace.
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Freed momentarily from the noise of ego, I am able to take in the depth and complexity in such simple words. So, is this how Spirit shines through grief? Be silent, wait for the message, followed by the EXPERIENCE. I will recognize it WHEN it comes. It comes, and it comes again and I feel my annoyance soften. I thank Spirit for this message.
Gratitude.
I ask for more help in understanding and conquering this sometimes insurmountable feat. The answers will not come in my time but in the time Spirit knows I am ready to accept.
Patience.
Loving myself comes after loving others on my heart list.
Awareness.
So where is the “how to” of finding the Love in myself, for self? I take a moment for a mini-reflection and ask myself "What is Spirit saying to me, what is Grief trying to teach me?" I rephrase: “See myself through the lens of Love and begin to overlook short-comings.” Short-comings are what I am seeing in myself, recognized as judgements when seen in others. Reflections in a mirror; what I see in others, I see in myself. A very needed lesson while in human form.
The Experience.
The part of my heart that carries love for others needs to carry that same love for me.
Knowledge/Wisdom.
It began with that raising of my hand to ego. STOP! Sympathy and empathy turned inwards into compassion; an action as small as a hand raised to ego—a change moving me forward in my connection with Spirit; to that spiritual place my soul is working to help me remember. Grief, teaching me without flashing lights, bells and whistles— simple words, nothing earth shattering but then again how could it be, I was in a place of Spirit!!
Peace.
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